Wound A Little Tight

Zak is a little stressed the last couple days. Not exactly sure why (I have a couple guesses...), but I'm full-on, throbbing veiny forehead, stressed. Not cool. In an effort to get shit off my chest and calm the fuck down - here's my take... So first on the list Christmas = Dramatic Mom. She is laying it on pretty heavy lately, which SUCKS. I can't just do my job without catching shit about family. and while I agree with her on its importance - I agreed before the lecture, and am doing the same thing after the lecture. except my life is now shorter and I have this guilt shit. Second, legal paperwork SUCKS. Incorporation, shareholders agreements, bylaws, vesting, intellectual property, ugh. I have taken what I think is a shine to the business side of things. and I'm pretty sure I'm not so bad at it. But I just can't stand reading this painful vague lawyer porn. Thankfully we are just a few more signatures away from finished. Third, I'm wicked cooped up. No exercise, no sports, no walking, cold as shit outside, not even any 'extra-curricular'. Just work, 16 hours a day. The work is coming along great - but I'm starting to lose my shit. My current plan on this is to start doing something like P90X in the basement - but I need to step away from the keyboard long enough to let that happen! Fourth, things have been a bit tense lately. With the drama and the cooped up and the legal shit there just hasn't been a good chill-out moment and misinterpretations are at an all-time high. Really I'm not worried at all about any of this - its just the time of the year and the stress level where it is. Give people a few days to veg over Christmas and we'll be great again! And lastly, Christmas - despite our lovely founder marriage - is a lonely time of the year for me. It always has been. I never really had a calm loving relationshipy Christmas whenever I was dating (for a lot of reasons lets just say it was pretty stressful), and for most of my dating life I was single around Christmas. And being (deep down) the sentimental romantic that I am, its lonely. And to ice the cake - for me Christmas is also the anniversary of the end of my most significant romantic relationship. ugh. Now somehow, despite all of this, I still do, very very much, love Christmas. It is my favorite holiday, I love the movies (I still watch the Grinch every year), I love the food, the eggnog, the festivities, the family, the bad songs, the Trans-Siberian Orchestra, all of it! and I'm hoping that tomorrow morning I'm going to wake up - take a deep breath - and its gonna be Christmas time, and that vein in my forehead is gone!